hello guys,
am real bored right now, so i decided to blog. but don't be mistaken, i still think i'm having a fucking good life. i mean when others in the middle-east are crying to survive, i guest i am fucking lucky, ain't i?

it's really sad, to see the numbers, rise like shit. i can't believe how precise those tomahawk cruise missiles are when about 1000 innocent people have died, not counting iraqi military and coalition forces. went to Independent argument forum earlier on in the day, have saw anti-war people and pro-war people speaking out, and it always remains the same, anyone who supports the war is always condemned. you should be. and by facts, and debate terms, i think anti-war always wins. no war is legal, cept for 3 wars, and there were over 150 wars fought in the past 3 decades. omg this world is so fucked.

i'm really sad, to think that UN is actually totally and absolutely useless. it only helped 3 or 4 wars? the vietnam war, the gulf war, etc. by facts, there has been over a number of 150 wars created after the creation of the UN. who cares? nobody gives 2 shits, and i was so fucking shocked. i mean 150 wars, are a big number. and there are wars everywhere in the world, right now, not just america and iraq. yeah, and no one stops these people. it's such a fucking sad thing. to think when i was in my younger ages, i always thought of the UN as the seekers of justice and all that crap, i mean they did help solve poverty and provide humanitarian aid here and there over the years. but sigh, how could they sit and watch other countries start attacking each other?

day and day, watch the news, surf the web, read propaganda, read dissidence news, trying to figure out who's right and who's wrong, this and that. really feel fucked, with all the corruption in the world, it pisses me off liek shit. seriously, esp when you don't know who you can trust, when your presidents shed crocodile tears or some silly punk bands just happen to have nothing better to do and to revolt for fun's sake. it's a world we live in, at times beautiful, but most of the time not, when it's filled with hypocrisy, brutality, and all that whole political dirty shit. had this dream, dreamt of my favourite movie of all time, the end of all wars. i cried, ahah, even when it was just a dream, i donno, i get so emotional at times. bahah.

have been to both the swee lee at bras basah(with ronald 2 days back) and the one at aljunied yesterday(with spencer, ben and mark), quite crazy, looking at all those expensive guitars, and drool cause i can't afford any. lol. but at least, i got to try some and the feeling kicked ass because my own guitar sucks totally shit i shouldn't bitch, at least i have a guitar, not like others. lol.

ok right now, i need to learn bass so i can play for my band, and i also need a bass guitar. feeling quite stuck, as i see everyone with different views and opinions and likes for music and all that shit. probably there was never a band with people that totally shared the same ideologies and all. i don't know, but like if there's no unity, where do we stand? my main reason for forming a band, the real and biggest one, is to make my music be heard, more of the lyrics than the rock though, to influence and change others, to try to bring back some humanity for our world, to let people know of situations and crisis at countries around the world, for good and so hoping that we could make it a better place, for you, for me, and for everyone else. other reasons follow as, playing music is a fun thing, nice to listen, feel good and happy jamming together, but those are not really my reasons. i want my music to be heard, make my music sellout as fuck, for all i fucking care, i don't want your money, i don't want no fame, i don't want to be a musician for the sake of appearing on corporate MTV one day. i just want to share my views, politically, morally, my thoughts, my opinions, with some good punkrock if we could compose, to everyone so that they might be enlightened. ok i think all of you must be thinking i'm a total retard and a fucking queer for typing that lot of bullshit. well, but i was really serious. the sad thing is that, i don't know why my other bandmates really wanna form the band for, i don't know, thats why i feel so different and i'm afraid that we might disband and all, screwing up our relations and all the shit. maybe i'm being too pessimistic, need to think like an optimist. shall stop spouting nonsense.

\ listening to jello biafra - die for oil, sucker \

and uh, gonna play soccer at 10am tmr, now is 2:38am. quite late huh. don't know how im gna wake up, shit.
i'll see you this far, take care. goodnight, eh uh no, good morning.

rock on
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